12:06am.
Freaking out now.
So many things crashing down.
The burden is really heavy, too heavy for me to carry.
Why does things have to become like this,
When everything was so near to perfect?
I really wished i could shout out every single thing in my mind.
I hate this, i really do.
Dad, you shot me right into my fragile heart.
Now it's shattered once again.
& i guess it'll no longer be mended. Cause you'll always be you.
Do you really love me, sometimes i wonder?
Or is it just some kind of over possessive thing.
I'm sick of having the cycle to repeat over and over again.
Enough! I don't want to be like some kind of 10 year old kid.
Being controlled even towards the person i chose to love.
Adults should always be mature or rather much mature than their child.
Damn it.
Eff to myself. Everything is my fault, HAPPY?
I'm not going to live in this world for you guys.
This is my life i over rule everything.
Even if you're gonna charge me again, i'm not doing anything illegal anyway.
Have you guys ever thought, if 1 day you were to leave this world.
What is gonna happen to me?
I'm 18 not 10. It's true i may be childish at times but,
I believe i have a clear picture of what am i doing.
Old man is right were heading no where but towards the wall, again.
Don't push blames on others when you didn't even get things right.
That totally piss people off, like totally.
I love you & my family but i don't deserve what i got.
Things could be so much better if you could just spare a little thought for me.
I'm dying soon.
Getting in to my coffin.
D save me please, i need you most now.
You promised to not leave me till you leave this world.
I promised not to leave you even until i leave this world.
Please keep your promise.
Never to leave me.
I love you.

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 12:05 AM