Cramps for calf muscles.
Damn. Didn't stetch before warm up run.
Duh. I can't descend the stairs &i couldn't walk normal.
Shit!
Had MAC for breakfast with brother.
Cab down to NSC after, Half the totalled amount.
He, cheated my money. (:
I thought i was the only one there.
But, Jeddy was already there, having his breakfast.
&Junle, i don't really care hther he's there or not.
Anyway, the nowagian coach &coach kelvin,
plus some of the windsurfers went for a run.
Did stretching after in the gym.
Fixed my out haul.
Went for lunch, wanton noodles. (:(:
Back to NSC, rigged up &phew~
The wind was really strong today.
Very rare weather in singapore.
Went out for an hour plus.
Recovered, washed and wait for the equipments to dry.
Bathed, un rigged and started packing.
I think my sail is gonna tear in pattaya.
I'll do my best but despite the wind, I'm a little scare.
I'm not thinking ((:
D is returning tomorrow!!
Yipee.Finally but i'm leaving.
Nights people.
I miss JJ.
I miss,love my BOO!

edited.
I saw JJ today ((((:
Grew fatter means it eats well.
thanks to the scholars room.
Million thanks.
Bribaby, you're the best! (:
I don't want to share room with shili, if you care. (:

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 12:33 AM

Went for facial today at jurong point, citibella.
Okay everything's good except for the squeezing part.
Effing painful. ): my face is like so red now.
&it looks like it's worst then before i went in.
Anyway, had lunch with jessprecious.
She flew over to thailand already.
Met jiahui, accompanied her to the gynae.
Then went to causeway after.
Watched - confession of a shopaholic.
& D called in the middle of the show.
I feel super guilty cause.. IDK.
I know it's not the first time.
It's also difficult for us to catch movie.
Cause the timing is always so wrong.
I'm sorry cause i've a curfew to follow.
Duh~ It's not gonna happen, again.
While talking a sudden urge to see him right away.
But i couldn't & it hurts.
I've kept you in my heart.
Deciding on a Gucci or Coach wallet.
I think i should stop thinking about all this stuffs now.
I need a PSP! So i wouldn't be bored on the plane.
Any kind souls?
Getting myself a I-pod touch. Brother says the price is getting lower.
PS:Mom, it was suppose to be my birthday present.
I miss JJ.
I love sweetheart.

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 3:34 AM

10:07pm.
Introducing JJ. Named after jessprecious and my name.
A little kitty found in NSC.
Very adorable and i always wanted a pet of my own.
But JJ is not just mine, it's jessprecious, bribaby..
Sort of those whom contributed.
Not those whom are only interested for the first time,
throw respondsibilties around after. _|_
To whoever it may concern:
I've nothing against you but if you get any of my friends into trouble.
You die. How important is a friend to you when the friendship turns out well.
I bet you'll never understand.
It seems like you the kind, "friends for benefit". No doubts.
One last thing, you are SO EFFING FAKE.
3 more days. yahoo!
D is coming back!
But i'm flying, before that i'm gonna spend the whole day with him.(:
He asked me write letters to him but i hadn't even set ink on any paper.
Could i blog instead?
I haven't been writing for ages. I feel funny/weird/awkward towards myself.
I miss him like so much.
But life's like that, even in the future.
There are times where we have to be seperated due to regardless work or..
As long as our hearts are together, that's what that matters.
Through this time where i'm still tied down and you're in NS.
We don't have to see each another every single day, but i wished.
Anyway, i'm tired.
Facial appointment tomorrow.
Accompaning jiahui to the doctor.
See you earthlings.
D, you're my D (:(:(:

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 10:04 PM

9:27pm.
Finally the 5 day competition is over.
& thankfully i manage to complete all races.
Compared to singapore open, endurance i guess.
I haven't been updating cause i'm resting or rather too lazy to use the computer.
Looking back the 5days 4nights in hostel past really fast.
Or is it because i was busy everyday.
I'm really glad it's over.
My family is back.
Why not D. ):
7 more days before i could see him.
It's good news that he's coming back on the 30th.
If not i wouldn't be able to see him before i leave.
That makes 3 weeks altogether.
I miss him like shit ass.
Sunday,
No church or rather skipped church.
Everyone was dead beat.
Woke up 12pm in the afternoon. Tired.
Went to vivo city then to expo then to century square.
Just to find the tights for windsurfing.
Went to expo to the addidas fair.
It's really a disappointment,
I pictured something better than what i saw.DUH.
Bought reebok tights, addidas shorts and a reebok windbreaker.
Thanks daddy.
Dad drop mummy and i at causeway point.
Went jean yip for hair treatment. D called me before(:
Thanks mummy.
Met old man for dinner with 9 other girls.
He was at republic poly for some musical concert.
We ate thai seafood at sembawang.
Head home after.
My face is peeling like shit.
I'm going for facial this week before precious leave.
Had swensens with mummy at tampines mall.
went jurong point to meet jessprecious and bri baby.
Bought 3 masks from the face shop. (:
Bought cleo and seventeen today.
Okay enough of my boring days.
Reporting tomorrow at 10am.
Training after.
Weather forecast states that it'll be raining for the rest of the week.
I miss sweetheart so very very much.
Do you know ?
Time fly please.
Bye people.

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 9:23 PM

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 9:23 PM

11:06pm.
I'm like half gone after today's competition.
Wind was like 0 to 5 knots.
Equals to if you don't/couldn't pump you'll die.
Damn it. What the eff.
Couldn't stand weather like this.
GOne for now, bye.
I miss D's call like so many times today.
&i feel bad.
I'm so sorry sweetheart.
I miss you so very very much.
Love you.

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 11:07 PM

8:27pm.
Woke up at 8:05am.
Effing tired, i hope i could get another 10 hours of sleeping.
Without any disturbance.
Couldn't find any breakfast.
Got bread with nutella & tuna.
Precious was giving out her in heart mother's love.
Rigged up was as easy as 1 2 3.
Cause we didn't unrig. Due to the 5 day race.
No point rigging and un rigging.
Launched early today, good weather.
But very very hot. i think someone offended Mr. sunshine.
Wind was good. But tiring, very indeed.
I miss D so very very much.
No news from him yet.
I can't wait for the 3 weeks to fly.
Although i wish 31st march wouldn't arrive fast.
But still i wish i could see you soon.
I don't understand why there's still people who thinks that we wouldn't last.
2 years is not long but not short either.
Despite having to go through so many obstacles together.
I have faith in myself that you're the one.
&i'm gonna be firm on my decision.
Because it's my life.
Even if we're gonna hurt each another one day.
I would treasure &make good use of the time we spent together.
It's just so beautiful, a very nice piece of art.
Irreplaceable kind.
I love you sweetheart.
Good night.

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 8:26 PM

10:50pm.
I'm like so lonely starting from this morning.
When daddy called me asking me to take care and stuff,
& last of all. They're flying soon.
Argh... superb uncomfortable.
D is away, parents are away. Lonely me.
I'm gonna spend all racing days in hostel.
Equals to when my parents are back.
Not that they wanted me to stay, i volunteered.
Not too let my mind wander when i'm alone too.
Darling, i miss you so so much. But time will past.
Just that everyday would be very weird without your messages and calls.
Competition today, rain when reached nsc.
But only for like 15mins?
Waited and waited. The sun came out & i assume it's very angry.
Cause it was like so hot.
Wind started blowing like around 12pm but very light. 0.5knots?
Then launched, took like forever to reach pa.sigh.
2 races, glad that i completed both.
Positioned 10, 6 in order.
Went to parkway after with precious and baby.
Ate dinner, bought some stuffs, head back.
I've completed reading eclipse. Moved on to breaking dawn.
I miss D so very very much, it's only the first day.sigh sigh sigh.
Bye earthlings.

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 10:50 PM

11:14pm.
I'm blogging while watching incredible tales.
Not really scary, watched before.
But watching for the sake of watching.
Woke up effing late today.
Didn't get to eat breakfast before.
Ate after church, had korean noodles.
Then home to pack my stuff.
I didn't bring much cause i'm prepared not to get wet.
I met D at around 4pm.
It was raining cats and dog when i wanted to hail cab from parkway.
I was like half dreched when i reach there.
Anyway, few more people were there &idk anyone.
Chilled.
D &i cycled to Mac.
To hail cab, i went home alone today.
Reached home effing early like 7.45pm.
Pulled out my extensions while bathing.
Short hair now, light head.
A liitle weird but i'll consider again after the pattaya trip.
I need to trim my hair!
Going to sunplaza tomorrow. Breaking dawn has arrived!
Meeting D early tomorrow.
Teehee.
Many loves to you sweet heart.
I love, miss, need D!

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 11:13 PM

Well i could say things are better now.
Stupid morning run almost had my life.
Idk why, but it's really a killer.
Precious &i left early, sick &uncomfortable.
I waited for D to pick me up.
Went to his chalet.
Chilled there, It rained & time was like so fast.
Cab back to his house.
Thanks sweetheart for sending me home.
It's like so far, from east coast to woodlands den back again.
Nothing much today.
Training tomorrow.
Church tomorrow.
Meeting D tomorrow!!
Teehee. (:
I'm treasuring every single second/moment spend.
I'm sleeping with his shirt for the next 2 to 3 weeks.
Not sick in the mind please.
Eclipse is almost completed.
I sill counldn't find breaking dawn! Duh.
&shili bought it already. ahh!!
Darling is really sick now.
Asked i him not to join the chalet instead but he say he couldn't.
But it's okay as long as he's happy i'll always be there.right?!?!
Get well soon please.
I love my boyf!

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 11:30 PM

12:06am.
Freaking out now.
So many things crashing down.
The burden is really heavy, too heavy for me to carry.
Why does things have to become like this,
When everything was so near to perfect?
I really wished i could shout out every single thing in my mind.
I hate this, i really do.
Dad, you shot me right into my fragile heart.
Now it's shattered once again.
& i guess it'll no longer be mended. Cause you'll always be you.
Do you really love me, sometimes i wonder?
Or is it just some kind of over possessive thing.
I'm sick of having the cycle to repeat over and over again.
Enough! I don't want to be like some kind of 10 year old kid.
Being controlled even towards the person i chose to love.
Adults should always be mature or rather much mature than their child.
Damn it.
Eff to myself. Everything is my fault, HAPPY?
I'm not going to live in this world for you guys.
This is my life i over rule everything.
Even if you're gonna charge me again, i'm not doing anything illegal anyway.
Have you guys ever thought, if 1 day you were to leave this world.
What is gonna happen to me?
I'm 18 not 10. It's true i may be childish at times but,
I believe i have a clear picture of what am i doing.
Old man is right were heading no where but towards the wall, again.
Don't push blames on others when you didn't even get things right.
That totally piss people off, like totally.
I love you & my family but i don't deserve what i got.
Things could be so much better if you could just spare a little thought for me.
I'm dying soon.
Getting in to my coffin.
D save me please, i need you most now.
You promised to not leave me till you leave this world.
I promised not to leave you even until i leave this world.
Please keep your promise.
Never to leave me.
I love you.

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 12:05 AM

3:01pm.
I'm sitting in the computer lab, rotting!
I miss D like so very very much.
Teehee. (:
Had a great morning.
Campbell marathon in the afternoon.
Rotting now. ):
SO SO SO BORED!!!!!!!!!

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 2:52 PM

10:45pm.
Woke up for church, early.
But late so didn't had breakfast.
My stomach was drumming.
Went for breakfast after at 768.
Had rice, fries, nuggets and iced milo.
I couldn't finish the rice. (:
Went home after to get some stuffs.
To ag home to get my windsurfing gears.
To constant wind to get my harness den nsc.
Busy busy woman.
Lucky dad fetched me or i'l be lazy to train everywhere.
Rigged up, something worng with my sail today.
Couldn't get it flat. Or rather the shape was funny to me.
Super low tide. Muddy, leafy/grassy yucky sea.
Launched at 3pm.
Effing disappointed with myself today.
Stupid flu was killing me.
& the sun was angry.
4:30pm recovered couldn't stand it, any longer.
Un rigged & bathed.
Got a ride from a friend to the bus stop.
Save my legs from the far far distance.
Bus 36 to parkway to meet D. (:(:(:
Bus 966 to woodlands.
Had LJS for dinner.
Sweet heart you ate fried food & you're sick!!!!
Do drink more water alright.
After food break, den bus back home.
Sit under my block, talked and smoked.
Then home sweet home.
I'm talking to D on the phone.
I'm in my room wacthing tv using computer & phone.
Multi task-er. (:(: Normal for me.
Waiting for incredible tales to start!
Bye now.
I love D, very much indeed.

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 10:40 PM

11:21pm.
D's sleeping already, he's sick.
He was fine this morning or rather the whole day,
Until we left his house. Oh my Gosh.
Get well soon, sweet heart.
I woke up at 5am today.
D met me under my block at 6am.
Trained down to habour front. Met eugene.
Monorail in to beach station.
Bus to tanjong beach.
It was raining, effing annoying.
Raining cats and dogs. ):
Went there to watch the milo tryathlon.
Chels, clare and people were either running, cycling or swimming.
I'm really glad D went with me.
But sorry that we didn't had breakfast before.He had gastric.):
I didn't really sleep much today.
Didn't realise that i was really tired until now.
Turning in soon.
After i shut down the laptop.
At the same time waiting for my hair to dry.
I might be changing extensions again.
Church tomorrow. training tomorrow. (:
Good night earthlings.
Had a great day with D.
I love D!

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 11:20 PM

11:26pm.
I'm really speechless now.idk why.
The feeling is funny, uncomfortable &annoying.
It's a kind of shit ass feeling that i always not wanted.
Talking to D now.
I'm mostly answering not talking.
As blank as my mind is how quiet am i.
I hate myself for all this to happen.
But i've told myself, i've to move on in order for things to get better.
All this past have to get out of our life.
& it will trust me.
I'm turning in now. D is waiting to turn in together.
Bye earthlings.
Good night.
I need D.

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 11:25 PM

11:28pm.
It's not late now, not early too.
I'm speechless for whatever reasons.
I haven't been blogging for days, weeks, months?
I not busy but somehow, am busy.
Trainings, work, training and more work.
It's not weird if i fall sick again.
Despite the weather and climate.
I hate this month of the year, where there's no wind.
& the scorching hot sun is like every where during daylight.
& raindrops drip down like razor blades in the night time.
It totally suck!
I'm reading eclipse and yakuza moon in the mean time.
But more indulge in yakuza moon, effing nice book.
I'm almost done reading already.
Breaking dawn is still not available yet. Asshole.
I got my off day changed to today.
I spent every second wisely.(:
Didn't really went anywhere, was in woodlands.
My phone was sort of dead.& it's a good thing.
I WANT NOKIA E71!
I know i'm not financially stable or supported.
But a phone wouldn't kill me any much.
Daddy settled my phone bill temporarily, to be payback.
Equals to i'm in debt. ):
I'm on the phone while blogging with D.
Good night, earthlings.
I love, miss D!

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 11:27 PM