8:19pm.
It's only 20mins past 8.
Oh my gosh. It's so super early.
Anyway, i left house at 6am sharp today.
Heading toward D's house.
Yesterday was freaking down.
I met him for dinner at casueway.
Had LJS for dinner.
Walked around & causeway point is seriously rotting.
Hopefully they'll get it upgrade or extend it.
It no longer has the shopping mood.
It was boring so..
We decided to sit under my block.
Another place of boredom.
Talked awhile, & he sent me home.
Some birthday party with his friends.
He was supposed to leave sembawang park before midnight charge comes.
Instead he called & said he had to rush back to camp.
My heart fell like hell.
I know i shouldn't be like this but..
We were supposed to meet early in the morning the next day.
I told him it was too sudden & my heart is small.
Lol. what a thing to say.
Slept at 2am.
My phone rang at 5:30am in the morning.
I almost didn't answer the call.
Too early to be answered without me knowing.
It shows "love" on the screen.
He's back at home.
HooHoo.
I went over.
In 10mins time we were both asleep.
Until 11:30am.
We were both half awake.
Talked & played around & we left his house.
To causeway for breakfast+lunch.
Had macdonalds. Tasted like shit.Standards dropping.
Anyway,walked around and Same old words. Causeway is boring.
I left for my program, he stayed to meet aaron.
Prgram was really cool today.
Loads of laughters & no seriousness.
Non changed. Except for 1 or 2?
D came to braddell to fetch me.
Thank you, D.
We trained back to admiralty.
Sat at the residential corner to waste time.
It was far too early for me to go home.
& D is going out.
Sad for me he wants me to go home.
From 7pm till now.
I've been sitting infront of the computer.
Turning in early tonight, competition tomorrow.
Sweet dreams.

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 8:18 PM

1:37pm.
Woke up at 9am.
Bath & got prepared and left home about 9:45am.
& eff to me.
I forgot my reporting was at 10am.
What the hell was i thinking?
Something is wrong with me.
Anyway i got there as soon as the transport took me.
Would rather cab down if i weren't so broke.
Reached Mcys at 10:42am.
Nice. Effed but not so bad.
Until 11:30am.
Left & head home.
I'm meeting D for dinner later.
HooHoo can't wait to see him.
Sweeyheart don't worry no matter what you're always shining in my heart.
Febraury is approaching in days.
Cheers to all.

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 1:36 PM

1:24pm.
Okay, it's not normal for me to blog now.
But i've got nothing to do.
Except to rot at home.
I'm oficially discharged from hostel.
Cool.
I've been waiting. Now time please fly to july as soon as possible.
Due to my unsucessful appeal to ite.
I'm going back to hostel to help out & stuff.
& that includes windsurfing.
Competition this saturday.
Duh. idk if i could make it.
Went back to ag home yesterday.
Went out with old man, mummygrace, jesspresious and bribaby.
To get harness.
He spent like a thousand bucks in just a day.
Sounds alot to me. But who knows i might be the one next time.
8 Magic marine life jackets for ag home.
& a neilpryde harness.
Wow. windsurfing really is a expensive sports.
& we went to nsc and manamana at had dinner ay east coast.
Head back to ag and i went home.
Long day i reached home at around 8pm.

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 1:23 PM

12:05am.
Today i woke up at 6:01am,
with the name "Love" appearing on my handphone screen.
He called to wake me up.
I told him i'm gonna reach his house by 7am sharp.
I know it sounds crazy but,
We don't see each another like every day?
It can be as short as once a week.
Due to my training schedules.
Only falls on weekends.
He only book out of weekends.
So our timing couldn't par at all.
I'm sorry, sweetheart.
I was early but he fell asleep.
I manage to get him up when i reach his house.
The whole singapore was like so dark so quiet so eerie.
Yuck.I was so alone so cold.
Everything was so DARK!
I was happy to see him.
We talked & we both fell asleep.
Went over to his relative house.
And we left at 5:30pm.
He sent me home cause my aunties are coming over.
I really wished one day i could bring him home.
Without anything to hide.
To have dinner together.
I don't understand why.
I'll wait for the very special day t come.
Darling, i'm missing you very very much now.
Many many loves.

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 11:58 PM

11:45pm.
Hoo Hoo.
I'll start with the first day of new year.
I woke up like 10plus?
New year is like a normal day for me.
Parents were't going anywhere.
Brother went to PA to windsurf?!?!
I'm left with me, myself & i.
Pathetic.
But but but, D asked me over to join him.
So wasn't that bad at all.
Or rather it was great.
Everything that has him is beautiful.
Imagination, i'm not sick in the mind.
I had a good day with him.
Being a very less talkative person.
It's very difficult for me to face crowds of people.
Anyway, everything was fine.
Until around mid afternoon, dad text me to go for dinner.
He mentioned a MUST.
Met them in causeway.
Super empty, i've never seen the shopping centre so quiet before.
Had swensens, presto salmon & cookie craze.
Throat hurting stuffs. Ice cream is super fattening.
Duh. But new year never mind. Haha.
I'm too bored.
Went home. & there goes the first day of new year.

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 11:39 PM

10:01pm.
I wasn't suppose to be sitting infront of the computer so early.
For some reasons.
Slept at 2am in the morning.
Cause cousins were here for mahjong.
I didn't join in.
Had early reunion dinner yesterday with gandma.
Had steamboat. Wasn't really like steamboat.
Maybe because there was only 6 of us.
I haven't seen gandma for so long.
She look younger than usual. I'm not lying.
Then i was stuck with the computer through the night.
The puzzle is half way done.
I'm gonna complete it by tomorrow morning.
Eve of chinese new year.
Went for training today.
National sialing centre was so empty.
I guess it's the season.
Wind was good. Drizzled a little.
Overall training was good.
Went home, had early dinner.
Went admiralty to look for jiahui.
Bought some things & head home.
My face is red like cherry.
Idk why, there's no sun today.I guess it's sensitive.
Nothing much to blog today.
Waiting for D to call me.
I wished i was waiting to see him.
XOXO.

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 10:00 PM

The pictures are so big!!

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 6:03 PM

3:43pm.
I know i don't blog at this time but i haven't update for 4 days already.
From monday, everything was nothing.
Or rather i couldn't remember what i was doing.
First 3 days was simply rotting & rotting.
And worst of it, D wasn't contactable. Stupid outfield.
I remebered i accompanied jiahui to the doctor in admiralty.
We slacked around her boyf was there too.
& then xiao matt came, i went home.
I think one day i'll rot until i grow fungi/fungus,
whatever its called.It doesn't matter anyway.
& i met zoe supposingly to meet jiahui for lunch also.
But she didn't come, claimed that she'd fallen asleep. ASS!
Was at the salon earlier in the afternoon.
Then zoe came.
Saw a ex school mate.
He is studying in the effing simei ite!
Damn it.
Had lunch at 630 coffee shop.
The char siew mee suck!
Went to my block talked awhile.
& she left.
Thursday, piano lessons.
New/more chords are coming!!
I don't think i could play both hands together, my hands/fingers are retarded.
Friday! yahoo!
I left house at 8:30am in the morning.
Went to D's house.
Bloody hell my knee was cracking like hell yesterday so i cab down.
Obviously there was nothing much to do.
But But But his presence made everything nice.
Watch a cartoon show. Interesting.
We ended up in causeway.
Causeway is effing boring already.
But depending on the the person you go with.
Gelare ice cream + milk tea = nausea/vomit/uneasy/effing uncomfortable.
Or maybe because there's something wrong with me.
Met up with lawlen & xiao matt.
Talked awhile, lawlen left.
We 3 went back to the shopping centre AGAIN.
Walk walk walk, rounds rounds rounds.
D sent me home.
I slept at 5am in the morning.
& pictures of myself in the new hair.
Happy chinese new year to all!!!!!

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 3:42 PM

1:27pm.
I'm rotting at home now.
Nowhere to go, no one to talk too.
Darn, Boring.
D i miss you like hell.
It feels kind of funny without your text or call before i sleep.
& i slept like 2:30am in the morning?
I didn't did it on purpose.
one: i couldn't sleep.
two: I was talking to jiahui on the phone.
three: i miss you.
HAHA.
I didn't update my blog for days accumalating to weeks.
Getting lazier & lazier each day that pass by.
Cause everyday is boring!
Wednesday tomorrow.
Then you'll be back.HooHoo.
Yesterday i woke up like 9am in the morning.
Jessprecious woke me up.
To go city plaza & also to get my Clipons.
But in the end i got back extensions.-.-
But the hair feels better then the previous one.
Alot better. Idk how long will this last but hopefully till my hair grow.
To a acceptable length i think.
I feel very funny cause this time i had straight ones on instead
Of the preious permed.
But i have tongs so i can curl it anytime i want.
Met precious at 11 at payar lebar.
She took out all of her extensions & re clip it up at another shop.
& i didn't realise we've been there for 5 long hours.
Went to eat singpost macdonalds yeaterday.
Rekindle the past where we eat mac breakfast everyday.
Or at bedok? Haha.
Seriously one year can hold alot of memorable memories.
I laughed to myself whenever i think back.
I didn't think that i would find a friend like you in hostel.
Very rare, i rely on you alot.
Although we don't share the same room now.
We will after new year.
Hopefully only the 2 of us.
So cool.
I'm going back to hostel to "work".
I don't know how to specify it but as simple as it can be.
Work.
Cause there's nothing for me to do out here.
ITE is not giving me a chance study.
Thnaks zoe for inroducing her job to me.
But i turned her down yeaterday cause the decision was final.
I'm sorry girl.
Am accompanying jiahui to the doctor later.
She says her throat itch.
Bye for now.
Hopefully i'll blog at night.

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 1:26 PM

11:15pm.
I'm blogging so early today,
Not really early but earlier then usual.
D text me like 4:45am in the morning.
I replied & he told he's not going to reply me until midnight?!?!
Duh.Out for mission, idk what's that.
Army life is really tough.sigh.
The whole day was spoilt because my application to ite failed.
It's really annoying, & it affects my mood.
I was woken up by countless of messages asking how was my application.
& it turned out like that.
Anyway, brother was back from thailand.
He bought me 2 tank tops. The ones which has SINGHA at the back.
Looks small but when i wear it, it's kind of too big.
But i still want it, cause he bought it for me.
I can wear it at home.
I think i've a blueblack at my back, somewhere in the middle?
Super painful, most probably caused by the lorry ride yesterday.
Bathed & accompanied brother to eat at causeway.
My stocks arrived today. But i didn't get it.
Cause i was asleep when the postman came.
Sorry Mr. postman.
I don't knwo how to advertise my blogshop.
I really hope there will be sales coming in soon.
I'm not gonna give up.
PLEASE SUPPORT!!
Met up with a blogshop owner but ain't confrim is the owner,
Got meisim's skirt for her & met meisim to pass it to her.
Complicated but actually very simple.
Went to watch redcliff 2 today. with brother.
I rate it 6/5. It's really nice.
Although i have not watch the first part yet.
The graphics was awesomely awesome.
& the way they planned was really good.
I'm in love with the horse-mengmeng.
Effing cute horse.
Went home, then to dinner.
I completed a spherical jigsaw puzzle.
It's a world map or a map.
I told myself i would never buy a sperical puzzle for myself.
Next i'm gonna start on a normal flat one.
2000 pieces i think.I'm gonna complete it myself.
Idk why i can sit infront of a puzzle for so long.
Hobby i guess, since young.
I hope my room will be hanged of countless of puzzles i completed myself.
It will come true one day, i swear.
Goodnight,earthlings.
Goodnight,d.

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 11:14 PM

12:10am.
I should be sleeping soon after blogging.
Promised D that i would learn to turn in early.
Have you ever realised i never calle you baby anymore?
Until the day you realize, i'll give you a stupid answer.
I LOVE YOU
You're not booking out until saturday & i've training on that day!
DUH~
I'm afraid that i wouldn't be able to see you!
I guess i'll get used to it one day.
Until the day comes, i'll be lying in he coffin already.
Hopefully Chinese new year there wouldn't be any single training.
& i pray hard for time extension.
I know it would be hard that's why i pray.
Sweetheart, I'm really sorry.
I red those messages to you, i feel relief.
It's kind of difficult to really accept those all by myself.
It's a killer.I hate it.Eff to her & eff to the things she wrote.
Even you're a engo lingo person,
There's many ways you can name someone.
Nobody can accept xxxx,xxxxxxx, trust me,NOBODY!
& obviously that includes me.
Eff away from him.
I don't care if you think that i'm unresonable or WHATEVER!
Just eff off!
I'm sick & tired of hearing/reading all this.
This post supposed to be posted like weeks ago,
But i don't give it a damn.
Woke up at 9:44am. D called me, cause i told him to.
To prevent me from ignoring the alarm on my phone.
Piano lessons, learnt jingle bells.
& when i text daddy he told me:"ting tong bill over la"
Cute daddy! That's why i love him!
Went home & computer was down. Boring.
I tried to look like all over my contacts to see who would be a kind soul.
& zoe was liek ahving a fashion emergency.
She needs clothes for her modelling/shooting.
Went to her house. Rekindle the past & we went to bishan with her friend.
Walked the whole of junction 8 & she only bought 3 t-shirts from OP.
Anyway, her friend drove her to chongpang & me to causeway.
To meet aaron. He was with a friend.
Nothing much, took a puff at the DESIGNATED SMOKING AREA.
& we left, he took 901 and i took 912.
I get to eat my fried ice cream today!! HooHoo~
Didn't really talked to D today.
He's kind of busy i guess.
"i'm gonna fall in soon,text you later."
Repeatedly for 3 to 4 times today.
Gosh i miss you badly!.
I'm off to bath now. Sleeping right after.
GOODNIGHT, D!

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 12:09 AM

10:34pm.
I'm talking to my boyf now.
I have not updated for like days.
It's kind of not busy but leazy days.
Nothing much happened.
It's all boring days actually.
I've decided to pierce my vertical labaret.
& i want to get it done soon!
That's all i've to blog about.
But i don't wish to end it so short.
But i don't what to talk about.
My boyf?
Duh~
We're working things out.Or rather doing good.
I know i love you.
I know i miss you.
I think about you all the time.
You were my heaven's sent.
I will appreciate everything i do for you or the other way.
The past is for us to remember and not dwell.
The future is for us create and live in.
XOXO~

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 10:32 PM

11:15pm.
I'm very very tired.
But i couldn't sleep,idk why.
And my tiredness brought in frustrations and irritations fast.
Without second thought, i just let my attitude flow.
Like any other girl, MOODSWINGS.
I know i wouldn't be able to sleep even if i try hard.
I know myself well enough.
Somehow rather i just wished i would be able to light a cigg,
Take in a deep breath & puff & puff..
I bet it would feel rather satisfying.
I swear it isn't addiction it's just like another bad habit of mine.
Irritating & super annoying sister.
I just hate it when i need to share a room with you.
Ya people say that you're adorable,
Does it make you effing 10 years older,
To think that your the queen of the house.
C'mon, wake up your bloody idea,
You're just a effing 8 going to 9 year old kid.
Just do what you should do & stop showing me your effing atitude.
I've nothing against you.
You're my blood sister.Who wouldn't die to have a yound one to love?
It's just that mum has pampered & spoilt you.
& you are what you shouldn't be today.
Looking at other families, i'm much more fortunate.
But it's you whose ruining every single happiness i longed for.
& i guess i'll never get it.
It will always stay as a longing.
Getting further & further away each day.
I think i'm kind of cooled down now.
Splurging everything out without a sec paused.
It's a long long journey..
Woke up at 7am today. what the eff.
Reached darling house at 8:20am.
Didn't do much. Just talking about all he past memeories & other stuffs.
& left around 1pm.
Went home,
& obviously i turned away from the very tempting bed in my room.
Sat in the living room & waited for the time to pass.
& jianan called me to share cab down.
You know i'm a lazy bum i wouldn't turn away such offer.
Waited again.
I didn't that today's program is starting at 3pm.
I happily waited for the time to pass.
& we're late for 30mins.
Sweetie, the 12th is just round the corner.
XOXO~
Goodnight&bye.

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 11:11 PM

1:46am.
As usual i'm awake now.
Plan to sleep after blogging.
Woke up at 9:30am but laze in bed for 15 minutes without realising.
Bathed & left home for piano lessons.
Was fun & i swear i was super enthu in that 30mins time.
Went to the library & i couldn't find any ooks i was looking for.
So only one thing to say the library suck totally.
Went to popular in the end.
Bought 'twilight' the novel.
Can't wait to read.It's still new in the wrapping now.
Head home after.
Nothing much happen i just slacked at home,
with the tv & 2 computers on.
Haha. I didn't know what the hell i was doing.
&i got a call from you.
At first i thought i fell asleep or something &i was dreaming.
But it turned out not.
Hey sweetie, i'm really really happy that you're out.
& i can at least get your messages.
The feeling is really AWESOME.trust me.
It's good to have you back.
Although it does feel kind of weird.
We ate, talked & laughed.
Nothing seems the same anymore.
&i guess thats what it takes takes to start anew?!?!
I'm gonna stop crapping now.
Waking up in 5 hours time.
Going over to your house in 6hours.
Goodnight to me.
Bye earthlings.

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 1:46 AM

No matter what you say about love,
I keep coming back for more,
Keep my hand in the fire,
sooner or later I get what I'm asking for
no matter what you say about life,
I learn every time I bleed the truth is a
stranger soul is in danger
I gotta let my spirit be free to..
admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind
sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind

(Chorus)
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry bout everything I done
live every second like it was my last one
don't look back got a new direction
I loved you once
needed protection
you're still a part of everything I do
you're on my heart just like a tattoo
just like a tattoo I'll always have you
I'll always have you
I'll always have you

I'm sick of playing all of these games
Its not bout taking sides
when I looked in the mirror,
it didn't deliver, it hurt enough to think that I could stop
admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind
sorry but I got to be strong and leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing's broken no need to worry bout everything I done
live every second like it was my last one
don't look back got a new direction
I love you once
needed protection
you're still a part of everything I do
you're on my heart just like a tattoo
just like a tattoo
I'll always have you
I'll always have you
I'll always have you

if I live every moment,
won't change any moment,
there's still a part of me in u
I will never regret you
still the memory of you
marks everything I do.
oooh..

(Chorus)2x
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing's broken no need to worry bout everything I done
live every second like it was my last one
don't look back got a new direction
I loved you once
needed protection
you're still a part of everything I do
you're in my heart just like a tattoo

just like a tattoo
I'll Always have you

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 10:59 PM

10:28pm.
Was talking to daddy on web cam previously.
I'm planning to sleep early today cause there's piano tomorrow morning.
Mummy says daddy is coming back tomorrow at about 11plus.
Will be waiting for him!!!! at home.
It's thursday tomorrow. Time swings so fast.
I really really hope that everything will be fine.
Sweetie, i miss you.
Flashbacks came into my mind.
Whatever i do, whatever i say.
It keeps playing back.
Regardless the good or bad time.
But somehow rather the flashbacks always make me end up with a little smile.
Woke up super late today.
At 1:43pm, i remebered so well cause i looked at my watch.
Stayed home the whole afternoon
Except i went down to the coffeeshop when i was super hungry.
Wanted to bear with it but i couldn't.
Had a burger.& side dishes of fries and fried bun.
I miss NYDC!! Waiting for brother to come back,
He says he's gonna treat me & precious to NYDC.
I might be mapling later. haven't been touching for days.
Will see how.
Goodnight, sweetheart.
Bye earthlings.

Tattoo - Jordin Sparks

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 10:28 PM

1:32am.
Woke up super early today.
4:30am. Miracle that i didn't laze in bed.
I woke up right after the alarm rang.
Reached airport at about 6:30am.
Daddy went to check in & we had our breakfast after that.
Had charsiew mee & daddy had prawn noodles.
Daddy says i'm weird to drink iced milo at 6plus in the morning.
Lol i think it's okay although i'm like the only one having cold drinks.
Daddy checked n & i almost cried out when he gave me a hug,
Before he went in.
Daddy i miss you so so much.
I realise how important it is to have parents.
I'm waiting for you to come back.
Went to meet huiwen after that.
Slacked at the minimart near aghome.
Went in at about 8:30am.
Was super tired.I missed my bed for that moment.
Ms Justyna came like 10plus.
Talked to her & let ag home at 11:30am.
Accompanied huiwen to her salon with xingyu.
To get her pay. She was like so happy.
Shopped at topshop and got leggings.
My 2nd pair of leggings, first one was stolen in ag.Damn it.
Went over to dorothy perkins, and head back to woodlands,
While they went to seng kang.
When i reach causeway was like only 1pm.
Super early, don't feel like going home since i'm already out.
Decided to catch a movie alone.
But rang aaron up to check if he's free.
Before he came, coincidentally bumped into zoe & jiaqi.
& the 4 of us watch twilight together.
My 2nd time watching.
Edward colins is really cool.Although he was human's most dangerous predator.
He really loved isabella swan.
It's really amazing.
I wished you could love me like how edward loved isabella.*smile*
I know you can, sweetie.
Hoohoo~
Reached home at 6pm.
Waited for 6:45 to fetch sister.
2 more days.
I'm really happy when your mum called me to say that you're not angry!!!
All the heavy burdens off my shoulder.
Bye bye extensions. i'm back to short hair again.
My hair really grew quite alot. (:
Anyway i'll be getting clip ons soon.
So i've a choice to go out with long or short hair.
The whole house feels so quiet without daddy's goodnight kiss.
I'm blogging while lookng out for supplers from overseas.
& finally i found one! thank god.
I'm sleeping now.
Meeting jiahui tomorrow for lunch & i told her i wouldn't be late.
I will be waiting for her!!
So i better sleep now to prevent me from not able to wake up tomorrow.
Good night sweetheart.
Bye earthlings.

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 1:31 AM

12:03am.
I didn't update for days.duh.
Time is running out.
Extended home leave ending soon.
Darling, i miss you.
I'm really sorry for all those criticism i've said.
I didn't mean it, really.
I didn't know what i said will affect you so much.
I feel bad writing all those stuffs to you, i'm deeply sorry.
The 8th is coming soon.Gosh.
Pray that nothing will happen.
I love you truly with all my heart.
With no doubts nor indecisiveness.
I just didn't want our relatinship to end up like any others.
I want us to be happy,
To feel good in this relationship we've created.
Countless of unsucessul relationship i've gone through,
I treasured, fight, debabte so much cause i know you're not one of a kind.
I really hope you understand how i feel.
i just felt so insecure so afraid of loosing you.
You're my one & only boyf.


Woke up for church today.
Super tired.
I fell asleep in church as usual,
Some funny weird things happened.
Don't want to talk about it.
Went for training after that.
So lazy.!!
Haven't been in the sea for weeks.
The wind was still strong but very very shifty.
Ain't used to it.
But everything was good.
Somehow rather i think that ag girls are so condemned.
Bribaby thinks so too.I'm not the only one.
Ms naomi gave a windbreaker that has a singapore logo &
A tag that says 22nd sea games.vietnam.2003.
Cool windbreaker.
I kind of made the decision that i'm not going to take up the scholarship.
Just by thinking of it makes me feel tied down.
I'm sorry PPC.
Sleeping early tonight.
Waking up at 430am later.
Sending my precious daddy to the airport.
He's going to china for business trip.
I'll miss you.
1 week !! Gosh.
Company so many people why my daddy.
Heading to ag home after that.
PO is coming.!!
Sleeping now.Good night.
Bye earthlings.

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 12:03 AM

HAPPY YEAR 2009!
WILL UPDATE SOON!

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 1:53 AM