11:15pm.
I'm very very tired.
But i couldn't sleep,idk why.
And my tiredness brought in frustrations and irritations fast.
Without second thought, i just let my attitude flow.
Like any other girl, MOODSWINGS.
I know i wouldn't be able to sleep even if i try hard.
I know myself well enough.
Somehow rather i just wished i would be able to light a cigg,
Take in a deep breath & puff & puff..
I bet it would feel rather satisfying.
I swear it isn't addiction it's just like another bad habit of mine.
Irritating & super annoying sister.
I just hate it when i need to share a room with you.
Ya people say that you're adorable,
Does it make you effing 10 years older,
To think that your the queen of the house.
C'mon, wake up your bloody idea,
You're just a effing 8 going to 9 year old kid.
Just do what you should do & stop showing me your effing atitude.
I've nothing against you.
You're my blood sister.Who wouldn't die to have a yound one to love?
It's just that mum has pampered & spoilt you.
& you are what you shouldn't be today.
Looking at other families, i'm much more fortunate.
But it's you whose ruining every single happiness i longed for.
& i guess i'll never get it.
It will always stay as a longing.
Getting further & further away each day.
I think i'm kind of cooled down now.
Splurging everything out without a sec paused.
It's a long long journey..
Woke up at 7am today. what the eff.
Reached darling house at 8:20am.
Didn't do much. Just talking about all he past memeories & other stuffs.
& left around 1pm.
Went home,
& obviously i turned away from the very tempting bed in my room.
Sat in the living room & waited for the time to pass.
& jianan called me to share cab down.
You know i'm a lazy bum i wouldn't turn away such offer.
Waited again.
I didn't that today's program is starting at 3pm.
I happily waited for the time to pass.
& we're late for 30mins.
Sweetie, the 12th is just round the corner.
XOXO~
Goodnight&bye.

ReminiscingJLoves♥ 11:11 PM